First Stop: Success!

So my first official art show was a success! I sold a lot more than I expected and am so grateful for the people who came by to show support. This just goes to show that you can do anything you want as long as you believe in yourself and stay positive. Let the universe guide you in the right direction to personal achievement. I've been focusing on myself and my life, and so far everything is starting to pay off.

I couldn't have asked for a better turn out, I had a blast with the only ones who matter and nothing can take that away from me. This is what life is all about, living for yourself with the ones you love right along side you for the ride. And right now my journey is just picking up, I still have so far to go and so much to learn, but I'm looking forward to sharing all of it with you.

Until next time, arrivederci

Time To Move On...

Soon will mark the end of a very long exhausting chapter in my life, and the beginning of a bright new one. I've recently gone through some self discoveries and spiritual awakenings that have changed me completely and gave me the incentive to seek where I belong. All my life I've felt like the odd one out where ever I was, like no one really understood me. I always knew that this place I grew up in was a blackhole, it sucks everyone into it and keeps them there, and I was afraid that I wouldn't make it out alive.

And at almost 23 years old, I find myself falling into that trap; working a full time job with decent pay and benefits, buying a car, looking for a condo to invest in, and worrying about bills, then rinse and repeat. I'm doing exactly what I was afraid of, and I'm so glad that I realized it at a young age. So with all this new incite, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do from here, and came to the conclusion that it's time to move on. In two weeks I will have quit my job, and will be able to focus on my art, something that I should have already been pursuing. I believe with no other distractions and work obligations I'll be able to make my way into that business and be in a state of happiness.

Now, I'm not naive enough to think that I can get anywhere without any money, that's just the way it works right now, unfortunately. But that is something I have planned ahead even if I don't have a completely detailed plan about what I'm going to do just yet. So money isn't an issue, figuring out where I want to go is. I've been thinking either New York because it's close, but I also love NY, Cali because I absolutely love it there and it feels more like home, Canada because they have free healthcare and everyone is nice lol, or just travel for a while, go everywhere. 

I don't plan on leaving until after March, so I still have a little time before I really have to decide. I'm confident that the universe will treat me right and lead me where I'm supposed to go seeing as I'm taking my first steps in the right direction. I'm done with thinking and worrying about what to do, especially when it comes to what the government and society wants me to do, I'll just let my heart guide me.

Follow your heart isn't a famous phrase for nothing, you know.

So if you'd like, stay tuned for updates on what I'm doing and where I'll be going.

Namaste...except I'm gonna go (sorry that was corny)


Something that never fails to astound me is the lack of humanity in the world. Everyone is worried about who's doing what, who's doing who, who's getting what and how much of it. What does any of what other people do have to do with your life? Why do you care about how someone else identifies? They're not doing it to personally hurt you or to make you feel uncomfortable. SURPRISE! The reason they do anything has absolutely nothing to do with you. Stop judging people based on their race, sexual orientation, gender, religious beliefs, just stop judging people period.

There is no race except the human race. We are a species. We only have different skin tones to better suit the geographical areas we live in. Take animals for example; there are many different species and breeds of animals depending on where you are in the world. Some can survive easier in parts of the world that others cannot because they are born with the traits necessary for life in those regions. But they don't kill each other because of it, they use it to survive. So when someone is racist and violent towards another person that is literally telling you that they believe they have more basic human rights than that person because their skin color differs.

I also don't understand the need to label everything. Why do you need to put me in a category? And then get upset if I tell you that I don't fit in that category? Everyone needs to understand that sexuality and gender is fluid. Being born with certain sexual organs does not determine what your gender is. Each individual person decides for themselves what gender they feel they are, not the gender roles forced upon them by society. Same thing with sexuality. As a human you are attracted or not attracted to someone based on the person they are, not about what's between their legs. Society teaches you to assume everyone is a cisgender heterosexual until told otherwise. We need to teach our kids to not assume anyone is anything and to accept people for who they are.

Religion is another touchy subject, but I'll shed a little light on it. I have no problem with religion, the problem I have is, again, with the people who "practice" it. I say "practice" because religion is supposed to be personal, not displayed for the world to see and shoved down everyone's throat. And just like gender and sexuality, it is something you yourself decide what best fits how you feel. Religion is your personal relationship with whatever god(s) you believe in, not a love triangle between you, your god, and the rest of the world. There are many different religions and spiritual practices in the world, so it makes absolutely no sense when people try to enforce their religion onto other people as if their religion is the only religion. It also has no business being in law enforcement, but I'll save that for another day.

Being a human is like being an animal; we all look different, have different sets of skills, and were put on this earth unwillingly without a hand book. But for some reason animals have a better understanding of how to live, and they're so simple yet complex to us. How can the very things we call wild and unpredictable be more human and understanding of how life works than actual humans? How can they co-exist with so many other species and manage not to destroy each other or the earth? They stay in their lane, that's how! They take care of each other and their habitats, they don't shit where they sleep. 

Just take a second and sit down. Zoom out of your own life right now and picture the world as a whole. All the different countries on different continents spread out in a big ball of ocean. Now zoom out of that image and picture all the planets in our solar system. Now zoom out of that. What do you see? Some people know what that actually looks like and others never even thought to imagine that such a thing exists. It does, and even beyond that exists. There are billions of other solar systems in billions of other galaxies. Just imagine what could be out there. How small does that make your life seem? Small enough to realize all the bullshit in your life? And that most of the things you do, say, and think are pointless because now you see that you were only doing those things because you're a product of society? If it did then you're one of the lucky ones who has the ability to broaden and take their minds to the next level. And if it didn't then hopefully one day it will.

So to end this post I'll just say,

Love yourself, love your neighbor, love your earth and you'll be happier for it I promise.

- T L Holliday

White History Month

Ever overhear a teacher bitch about having to do an assignment for black history month and then laughingly say something about why isn’t there a white history month? Ever had to bite your tongue. Ever had to hold back from going on this long tangent about white privilege? 

About how once upon a time black people were bought and sold amongst white men. Colored people were told what to do and beaten if done incorrectly by white men. They were raped and slaughtered by white men. Then black people were freed from slavery only to be chased and hanged in the streets all thanks to white men. Being afraid and having to look over their shoulders when out at night because of white men. Not being able to find work because everything was owned by white men. Having to endure derogatory names and racial slurs spit out at them by white men. Having separate bathrooms, water fountains and schools, separate everything because white men thought them lesser human beings. 

Ever had to stop yourself from saying,

“When white men have to fight for their birth rights because they were taken away, are hosed down and spit at or beaten and killed because of the color of their skin then come talk to me about why there isn’t a white history month. 

That if you really have to ask that question then you have absolutely no business being a teacher.”?

I have.

Racism is very much a real thing and is still alive to this day, whoever says otherwise is probably white and/or racist. Why isn’t there a white history month? Because we’re taught about white history every day